“There is so much more I want to tell you, but you can’t bear it now.”
Imagine with me, if you will, sitting with Jesus and His disciples around the Last Supper table. However, you don’t know it’s the “last.” Jesus whispers something to Judas and he abruptly leaves, you think to offer tzedekah (traditional gift of charity) to honor Passover. However, he has a much more sinister plan. What you don’t know is that Jesus needed Judas out of the way so He could tell you and the others what was about to happen, so you would be ready and not lose heart.
Jesus opens His heart in ways that puzzle and trouble you. You followed Him for three years. You listened to Him teach. You witnessed amazing miracles. You believed He was Messiah…the One who would deliver Israel from the tyranny of Rome. You put your hope in Him. You left everything…family, home, livlihood…for Him. Now, He’s talking about leaving. You are troubled but intrigued by all He is saying, yet He says that there is more He would like to say, but He can’t because you can’t bear it.
Perhaps the disciples could not bear/take in more of what Jesus wanted to tell them because they were too full of their own pain and sorrow. He didn’t rebuke them for it. He understood that they were not in a place to consider God’s great plan of redemption which was about to play out. They only saw the present sorrow they faced hearing that Jesus was leaving. Hard too for Jesus knowing He had to face death alone–those He was closest to would abandon Him.
Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance.
1 Corinthians 13:7
This is what comforts and quiets my soul during difficult times…trusting that He sees the whole picture, the end from the beginning. He knows how it will all turn out, and I can trust Him to lead me through. When I can fully trust Him, lean on and rely on Him, I don’t have to understand. Understanding will come.